Me during Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum and hello guys !

So we are at the end of Ramadhan already. How's ur Ramadhan ? I hope it is better than the previous ones.

Just wanna share my experience and what i feel about this Ramadhan. To be frank, i have wasted too much time in this Ramadhan. Like seriously, i will be sleeping most of the time during the day. After i wake up, i will feel very tired and continue to sleep again. At night, i usually sleep at around 12am, so, waking up for sahoor at 5am is really hard for me. Still, i am forcing myself to wake up and eat something. After fajr prayer, i will take another round of sleeping. Phewh ! It is tiring just by reading this, right? 

After many times repeating the same routine, i say to myself "uhh ! What am i doing ?!" "What makes me feel so tired?!" "Is it the food that i eat? Or the amount of the food that i eat?" 

Maybe it's the amount of food that i consume. So, i start to take a small amount of food during sahoor. Still, i keep on sleeping during the day. Then i think to myself "maybe it depends on my mentality. If i have the mentality that fasting is not tiring, then only i can prevent myself from getting sleepy." So yeah..im still trying right until today. Huhu.

Sleeping is one thing. The other thing is i feel like fasting is merely making myself hungry for 14 hours+ and later i will break my fast like nothing happened. I mean..spiritually. It is like wasting my energy for nothing ! 

Then only i start to ponder "God is trying to make us feel (maybe just a glimpse) what the underprivileged people feel. He wants us to realize that there are people who live in hunger so that we become a humble human being. So that we will never discriminate the rich and the poor. So that we share our wealth with the needy. So that we will never put money in our hearts, but only in our hands. For us to give. For us to share." 

Alhamdulillah. After discovering the reasons behind fasting, i started to admit that i am spiritually weak although i may seem physically tough (ok..this is awkward). And although it seems that the hungry people are physically weak, but believe me..they have the strongest spirit.

My point is that..when you find the reasons behind the things that you do, you will appreciate them better. As long as it is a good thing, ofcourse. 

With that being said, i hope that we can purify our intentions in this holy month and insyaAllah God will reward us. 

Amiin 

Book review

Assalamualaikum and hello guys !!

So..Recently, I bought some new books for my own leisure reading. And guess what ?! I bought them all with book vouchers (just like a normal student would do). 

With that being said, for the upcoming posts, InsyaAllah I will review or give some ideas about the books that I have read or will read in Malay, most probably. Lets start with 3 books at the moment. Those books are :-

1. Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck by Allahyarham Hamka ;

2. Tuan Direktur by Allahyarham Hamka and ;

3. Merantau Ke Deli by Allahyarham Hamka as well.

As you can see, all of them are Allahyarham Hamka's work. Yep. Frankly, I'm in love with his writings. And since PTS re-published his works, I think it's better for me to take this opportunity to read and understand the messages that he tried to convey. So, yeah. Go and buy one if you have not. And lets have a review session at the comment section below, if you will. :))

Thanks guys !